so I’ve mentioned in passing a few times that I was on an anti-depressent that gave me a terrible skin rash. since that is classified as a severe allergic reaction my psychiatrist advised me to wean myself off them, which is what I’ve been doing for the past two weeks. but today was the first day that I’ve been off them. like zero meds in my system. and I think I’m going through a mild withdrawal. I’m experiencing headache, dizziness, nausea, and vomiting. so that’s fucking great. and to top it off my mood has been really low. I may have had awful side effects from the meds, but they did help stabilize my mood, even though I was only one them for a short period of time. I really hate feeling like I did a few months ago where the oppressive urge to hurt myself is so overwhelming and I feel powerless to stop it. and it’s so bad because I don’t want to do it and I know that I shouldn’t do and I feel awful after I do it but it’s like it just somehow happens. depression has got to be the stupidest fucking illness in the world. who the fuck does it think it is?